I have nothing to say today. This morning in the office with the other midwife, I found out Betsy’s mother is in the hospital, on a ventilator. Then I called L&D, and found out that Dr. X and Dr. Knight had delivered two babies, one of them after an overnight induction, without telling me anything. I called Dr. Knight and politely requested that he let me know about any other patients. I’m sure those were the last two for the month. I was extremely pleased with myself, I managed to finish office hours without crying or looking too particularly disturbed.

My car CD right now is Beethoven’s Mass in C. It’s impossible to stay too upset while listening to his magnificent, fierce, challenging setting of “Et resurrexit tertia dies, secundum scripturas, et ascendit in caeli, sedet ad dexteram patris; et iterum venturus est, cum gloria, iudicare vivos et mortuos.” And he rose from the dead on the third day, according to the scriptures, and ascended into heaven, and is seated at the right hand of the Father; and he is coming again with glory to judge both the quick and the dead.